What would life be life if I was braver? What would it be like if I pushed through my first major? Would I have left my first school any way? What if I started at UMBC or anywhere else. I think about that sometimes. I think about how everything could have been different. If I would be happier, or did life turn out exactly the way it should be. I think life is good, and I'm not 100% on whether or not it's the best, but it's definitely good and I'm ok with that.
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She has a boyfriend now. I'm happy for her. Frustrated by that turn of events because I thought there was something possibly there, but I think she wanted me to put up too much effort. Granted I believe you should make the effort, but it's a 2 way street. If you don't take the time to cultivate something with me, then I'm going to stop trying with you. It's not fair to me, IMO.
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I don't know if I should continue whatever this relationship is. He's sweet and adorable and nothing that I'm looking for. I need him to be able to stand on his own feet and not just follow along. I am a strong personality and I want someone who is that too. I don't want to carry the weight, I just want to have a partner, not a plaything.
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It's been hard getting over you, but slowly I'm making progress. I'm going on a date with a great guy that is everything you weren't. I finally realised I'm allowed to move on with my life and do what makes me happy.
Anonymous
"if they can't see youre a good person, theyre not worth your time. You still have the people who take the time to get to know you. It's their loss if they don't see how wonderful you are." thank you, C. I put this here for anyone else who might need to know that they're still great even if people they like don't like them back. Encouragement abd support should always be a umbc value.
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And I don't even like the ones I have. What would be the point of adding more? I'm probably just going to leave them like the ones before them and the ones before them. G-d I hope someone can identify who I am without me having to give it away. Maybe not identify me, but *with* me. I think that would work better.
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But I want her. I want her. I want her. I want her to be part of my life. A part that I would not want to live without. Maybe I just want her looks to show off. Maybe I want her personality to feel like I'm content. Would i be content? This may be a whiny bit, but that's what got Salinger famous. Perhaps I'll overcome this fear. I must find that my potential prosperity with her doesn't outweigh the risk of it not working. Does that mean I just want friends? I have too many as it is.
Anonymous
I like her. Well, I thought I liked her. I can't tell if I was just too slow, or played for the attention. She's prettier than I could ever catch. Maybe I'm a pessimist. G-d forbid I let a girl get close to me. I don't want to feel pain of it not working. I don't want to lose respect for her for just giving it up to me. That happened a couple times. Once here even. I feel bad about that, but we had a misunderstanding. Now I'm told to not waste my time.
Anonymous
What I got out of my relationship was violence, emotional abuse, terrible sexual experiences and a coffeemaker. I love that coffeemaker and it gets me going every day like you never could.
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